Night in the busy City.
June 18, 2007
Well it has l another good day. Is it the drugs? I wonder to a certain degree. The new meds may be a reflection of my mood, but, the sense of hope and love, I think may come from Spirit and the possibility of hope, could be a psycho med thing, hope, but I choose to stay in the spirit world. My soul feels feed today. I feel complete. Many other stresses, and conflicts are still present and my pain threshold is to the ceiling.
The pain is something to be endured like a bad haircut, a screaming child I would like to drown out in my head. Thank God for noise Canceling headphones. The city never seemed to miss a beat last night.
Orr and I drove to the horse and carriage area of the park and we took a carriage ride for an hour. With cold drinks, Orr jumped out in mid motion, and ran into a Starbucks, while the horseman sort of parked the carriage. What a wonderful night. Heavy traffic noise blanketing the heavy humid air, as we went farther into the park, it became cooler with all the trees and bushes and the water we were circling. We laughed as I was reading Thomas Jefferson's Bible aloud. " We must reduce our volume to the simple evangelist, select, even from the vary worlds only of Jesus. There will be remaining the most sublime and benevolent code of morals, which has ever been offered to man."
-Thomas Jefferson
Does this mean we being Gay are being offered a benevolent code of morals, thus, are we moral? I may be but Orr definitely not! He will have to purchase that option for past present, and future. I assured him, but I believed it could be done. He was not impressed, but I was.
To Lorrie with love
The wind was actually boisterous, the waves were actually high, but Peter did not see them at first. He did not reckon with them, he simply recognized his Loard and stepped out in recognition of Him, and walked on the water. Then he began to reckon with the actual things, and down he went instantly. Why could not our Loard have enabled him to walk at the bottom of the waves as well as on top of them? Neither could be done saving by recognition of Lord Jesus.
We step right out on God over some things then self-consideration enters in and down we go. If you are recognizing your Lord, you have no business with where He engineers your circumstances. The actual things are, but immediately you look at them you are overwhelmed, you cannot recognize Jesus, and the rebuke comes: "Wherefore didst thou doubt?" Let actual circumstances be what they may, keep recognizing Jesus, maintain complete on Him .
If you debate for a second when God has spoken, it is all up. Never began to say-- "Well, I wonder if He did speak? Be reckless immediately, fling it all out on Him. You do not know when His voice will come, but whenever the realization of God comes in the faintest way imaginable, recklessly abandon. It is only by abandon that you recognize Him. You will only realize His voice more clearly by recklessness.
"And Peter...walked on the water to go to Jesus. But when he saw the wind boisterous, he was afraid."
MATTHEW 14:29-30
Lorrie, I hope this helps, keep me abreast.
Love,
Joe
